Hey guys. Today I thought I would venture more into my fertility journey. This post has been hard to write, I’ve sat and stared at the screen and would type…then deleted…then avoid.
This part I want to talk about the syndrome I have. Looking back I always knew something was “wrong ” with me. But I also like living in my own little bubble. I wanted to avoid it and pretend to carry on with my happy little life and push those thoughts deep down. I avoided the bad news and wanted to stay ignorant. Like the saying goes ignorant is a bliss right?
I’m not exactly certain what made me finally want to make an appointment, I just did. I remember researching fertility doctors in the state, calling and hanging up before anyone answered. Waiting a few days and talking to Geoff about it. I remember finally calling and feeling so nervous.
The day the appointment finally came, they ran a lot of tests and ultrasounds to check for any issues for my fertility. While I was laying on the table during my ultrasound the ultrasound tech pointed out that I had cysts on my ovaries. She then started speaking words such as cancer, complex, PCOS. My head started to go in a whirlwind. It was confirmed I had PCOS. That was basically all the fertility doctor told me and then sent me on my way without explaining what it was. Well if anyone knows me, you know I research everything, so on my three hour car ride home I searched everything I could about PCOS. When I found out that I had PCOS I had a lot of mixed feelings. First I was scared I had no idea what it was then I was confused half the information I read just became a blur.
Later I then went to fertility doctor #2 we talked about my PCOS and the next steps. He prescribed me medication to take. Explained that one medication, while it helps you conceive is also harsh on the internal organs and you are only allowed to take three rounds and then you are done. I took the medicine faithfully and every month was disappointed. After three rounds, we tested more. The doctors couldn’t come up with a reason why I couldn’t get pregnant. They just told me I couldn’t and left it at that.
Just in case I lost anyone at PCOS
“ Abbreviated PCOS. Polcystic ovary syndrome is a condition in women characterized by irregular or no menstrual periods, acne, obesity, and excess hair growth. PCOS is a disorder of chronically abnormal ovarian function and hyperandrogenism (abnormally elevated androgen levels). It affects 5-10% of women of reproductive age. PCOS is also called the Stein-Leventhal syndrome.”
PCOS is very common in women in childbearing age. That could mean that a friend of yours may have it, or another woman that you know may have it. It’s a comforting thought to know that you are not alone.
pleasantwith that. I wish I would have been more aware so that I could have prepared myself & my body. This is why I want to share my story on here today. I hope it helps someone out there with their fertility & helps people who know they have PCOS to know that they are not alone.
PCOS is not only stressful on women. Infertility causes a lot of stress on marriages. Our marriage is one of them. Now I’m not saying Geoff and I are not happily married, but with being diagnosed with PCOS it has definitely put strain on the marriage. Geoff has always been very supportive and always goes with the flow. Me on the other hand…not so much. I am already a VERY self conscious person and I am always thinking I am not good enough.
Well being diagnosed with PCOS didn’t help me with those ideas. I felt like I wasn’t good enough as a woman, or a good enough wife. I am very slowly learning not to listen to that inner voice, or change my inner voice and gain confidence. In a big way Geoff and I have grown closer because if PCOS and our fertility struggles. He is my best friend. One thing that I do regret is I got caught up in the struggles of my fertility a lot and I pushed Geoff and others away. Don’t get caught up in it. Enjoy and love the now and who you get to enjoy the journey with because it’s all in the master plan.
10 Things To Know About PCOS AND my fertility
1. Your eating habits can change you PCOS. PCOS can not be cured but symptoms can be lessened by eating right and exercise.
2. Remember to relax. Stress makes PCOS symptoms worse
3. PCOS is the most common cause of infertility in women. If you are struggling with getting pregnant, go to a doctor you trust & get checked.
4.I am healing and recovering and also learning about PCOS. I think I will always being growing from this experience and journey.
5. Having PCOS does not mean you will never become pregnant. There is hope! Some people do not struggle at all, some can easily get pregnant with medication and some with IVF. There is always hope.
6. What are my symptoms? Weight gain and not being able to lose weight. I have infertility, irregular cycles, or no cycles and acne. Remember not everyone’s symptoms are the same.
7. For treatment of PCOS many doctors prescribe Metformin, which is also a diabetic medication. I have been on Metformin, Clomid, Provera, & a few other medicines to work with my PCOS. Again, everyone is different, your doctor can go over your options with you. There are also a lot of natural treatments that you can do. I am currently researching those and thinking about trying some.
8. Women with PCOS are at higher risk for pregnancy and delivery complications. These include a three-fold increase in miscarriage risk in early pregnancy compared to women without PCOS, gestational diabetes (diabetes during pregnancy) which can lead to large babies, preeclampsia which is characterized by sudden elevated blood pressure and body swelling after the 20th week of pregnancy, preterm birth, and C-section delivery. I had preeclampsia and delivered by C-section but that s a total different story that I will tell at a later time.
9. Women with gestational diabetes have an increased risk of developing type 2 diabetes. I developed gestational diabetes, and now have Type 2 diabetes.
10. YOU ARE NTO ALONE. I know many days it seems like you are. Believe me I know and I feel your pain. Reach out to others and express how you feel. We are in it together.
I AM NOT PCOS. I have PCOS, but I will not let it ruin my life. I will not be sad about it or blame myself or others. Do I struggle with it some days? Of course I do! I am still currently working on this I am learning that I am wife, a mother of a beautiful miracle child, a daughter, a teacher, a friend, a blogger, along with many other things. I am not PCOS. I just simply have PCOS and I continue to tell myself this daily.